23 weeks
Ive come to the realization the other day what im getting into, i get glimpses of actually realize whats about to happen to my life and although i dont think ive quite got a hold of it the human being jumping around in my belly is slowly leading me there…
Sols so amazing and its so nice to have someone worry about me, like worry about everything i do outside the house..ive never had that *well excepect my parents which i never really grasps their fear until now* In a blink of an eye i have a family, a family to love but mostly to worry about. Ive never felt this fear before..*well again, other then my parents who from a young age ive thought about the day they will die and how i could possibly cope, i remember being very young maybe 7 or 8 crying to my mom about how i worry about her and since then its stuck* But the other day i thinking about how incredible my life suddenly is and how amazing and scary what i have is. Its a heavy feeling thinking about what i have on my shoulders, a Family. Its def changed my thinking in everyday situations, they way i look at moms at the store and im even trying to change my driving habits cuz im such the asshole driver. Ive got a life..same as the life my mom gave me in my uterus and its my job to do the best i can to make his new life as good and loved as mine..meaning putting my pride down *which ive NEVER done in my life*, Being the bigger person and walking away from certain situations, and just being patient and looking at the other persons point of view. I gave him this life and its my job to make sure he is safe, healthy and happy.
On Tuesday we got an ultra sound and fetal echo to look at his heart and everything checked out, hes looking good and strong. Here’s a pic from the ultrasound if you havnt seen it yet:
He’s perfect with chubby lil cheeks
August 23rd, 2009 at 6:55 pm
Your going to be an excellent mother. Reading that makes me tear up because I felt the exact way you worded that while I was pregnant. Also before I got pregnant I never acknowledged women in the store with their children, Now I notice it everywhere and get all gaga over thier cute kids. It’s such an amazing experiance to have children of your own and to care for. It IS the greatest gift life could ever give you. =D
August 23rd, 2009 at 10:30 pm
I’m so jealous
lol
my boyfriend and i have been trying to get pregnant for two and a half years and nothing!
August 24th, 2009 at 3:09 pm
thats why i love this blog cuz i get girls all the time saying they feel the same way which in return makes me feel a little more sane haha but yah im already sooo gaga over babies but now that im showing i think the moms are a little less creeped out haha
Jenna- im sorry to hear that
have you guys tried getting help?
September 1st, 2009 at 8:03 pm
no he refuses to go get checked
i been to my gyno many times and im in perfect health
but as far as him who knows
October 11th, 2009 at 8:38 am
Have you thought of any names yet?
October 11th, 2009 at 4:02 pm
oh yes! i need to update this thing haha